its intimidating to know i'm putting myself out there for people to read and make their own impressions about me. i try really hard to sound cool so people will like me...but its starting to wear me out. coolness is not my gifting. "gifting"- what a funny word...and yet i know that every person who is a christian and reads that word will know what i mean. no wonder people think we are strange.
i just re-read this and realized i have posted yet another blog on how i want people to think i'm cool. wow. this needs some clarification. i guess down deep i do want people to like me and think i'm cool...i mean really...who doesn't? but i honestly don't spend time thinking about ways to make myself cool. who has the time? i'm generally pretty happy with the person God created me to be. i definately have flaws and issues, but i prefer to keep them nicely tucked away in denial.
and if i lost 20 more pounds i would be even more happy with the way God created me.
speaking of Jaden (the cause of the extra 20 lbs)...i actually played with him today. its so exciting to see him interacting. he smiled so much this morning i thought my heart was going to burst. he even laughed a little bit. what an awesome kid.
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holy moly, i didnt know you had a site (or time to post) but im glad i found it (noel) because i miss you guys (you and dan) and hope to meet your kid (Jaden) sometime relativly soon (within a year or so).
OH and i think your cool.
little bro Trevor.
hey trevor. its good to hear from my little bro (you). i hope you can see us (dan and myself) and our kid (Jaden)very soon.
"Gifting" is such a beautifu word. Never heard it. But I guess that has to do with growing up Catholic and only discovery "The Other" side a few years ago!
You know, blogging is one of those things that serves many purposes, not all of them noble nor "high art" nor particularly interesting to the whole world. But sometimes, I think, blogging helps define & redefine some of those things we toss around in our heads. By virtue of ze blog we can feel out who we are. People who read us can sometimes serve as "feedback" so we can see if the face we present to the world is one with which we are OK.
You and your husband seem like a real hoot and hootiness is a whole lot more fun than coolness any day.
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