its open

the shop opened. i wasn't here. i know most everyone who reads this blog already knows that my father-in-law died...but in case you didn't...he did. it sucks. i miss him, but more than that i hurt for my mom-in-law and the kids. it hurts a lot. i'm angry, sad, confused, exhausted, hurt, and other stuff that i can't adequately express so it will stay in the category of "other stuff." i love dan's family so much. they are amazing...people keep talking about how strong they are. the thing is...i don't think linda wants to be "the strong one." i think she wants to be left alone. she's tired. i think she wants to crawl up in a ball and sleep everything away. thats what i would want to do. she said that she doesn't know if she can bounce back this time. that kills me. she knows the road ahead of her because she's already been through this once. for those of you who read this who are praying people, please pray for her. please pray for her alot. i know you probably don't know her, but she is one of the most beautiful people i know. her soul is deep and full of love.