i don't know if anyone is even going to see this because i'm sure i've lost all my blogger audience by now. i've been told that its bad form to go almost a complete month without posting. but for anyone out there...i'm back. (warning: justification coming)blogging can be overwhelming when you miss a small amount of time. i've had so much to say, that when i would have a few minutes here and there over this past month, i wasn't near a computer or i knew i just didn't have enough time to say what i needed to say.
but i'm back in MI now, and jaden is napping...so i'll give it a whirl.
as most of you know, dan and i have been gone since the 12th. we visited friends and went to hslt. i have to say it was the most exhausting and rewarding trip i've been on yet. hslt would have been relaxing except that i was an idiot and decided to do some self reflection while i was down there. i've decided i like thinking that i'm okay. its much easier. once i started looking at who i really was and where my motivations and reactions came from...it was pretty ugly. its not fun to see that you are consumed in selfishness and masked in piety. but, long story short...i confessed my rotten self to God and anyone else i needed to (especially my husband), and i'm doing much better. as hard as it is to have my eyes opened, it really is much better. at the risk of sounding ridiculously cliche...i feel new.
the amazing part of our trip was seeing our friends. dan and i have such beautiful people in our lives...here and across the country. jaden seemed to like our friends as well. the last night of our trip was one of the best nights. we sat up till 3 am with our friends talking about our lives and things we were struggling with. it really felt like God was there guiding and directing our conversation. it was one of those talks that even though its going into the wee hours of the morning, its more refreshing than sleep.
so now we are home...and happy to be here.
oh yeah, read Blue Like Jazz. i read it in MB. its beautiful.
3 comments:
I'll read your blog any day. Glad you made it back to Holt safely - and had a renewing time in MB. We love you guys and miss you so much. Isn't our God indiscribable? He take each of His children and grows us according to the person He created us to be. Each completely different, each seeing things a little differently than anyone else, each a completely unique individual and yet each created in His image. What a multifacited God! He is working on my fence building stamina again :) Hugs
okay, so THAT'S where my copy of Blue Like Jazz went! You're the first person to describe the book as "beautiful". Interesting. We'll have to chew the fat on that one.
Steve
Nope we bought our own copy. We returned yours to you Steve-O
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