my hands smell like stale bread

...and every time i accidentally smell them i want to throw up.

i had a twix for lunch and all i can think about is how i want another one (or two if you count the cookies as individual candy bars).

smelly bread hands= bad
twix= good

yup...i'm pregnant...and hungry

i forgot my lunch today. not a good sign on my ability to care for the baby.

how difficult is it to remember to feed myself when i'm pregnant? i'm supposed to be eating for 2, and currently i'm eating for none.

it could be a long 9 months.

maybe i'll remember to feed the baby once i can hear it cry.

Tender Moment

Yesterday morning I crawled into jaden's bed to wake him up for church. as soon as he knew i was there, he sleepily rolled over and kissed me on nose. he then wrapped his little hands and arms around my neck.

delightful....

then we were sitting at the table for breakfast. he was eating his waffle, i was drinking my coffee across from him.

i smiled and said;

"Jaden....i like you so much."

he looked up, smiled and said;

"Mom...i want to poop on your head."

delightful, but in a different way.

do you want to give me stuff?

i like stuff. i like lots of stuff. i don't even care most of the time what kind of stuff...just stuff.

i'm not supposed to. i'm supposed to be happy without stuff. so i'm trying. and i'm in withdrawal.

its like a good eating plan. i'm better for it in the long run, but i sure do crave that sugar rush for the first few weeks.

i watch the danielson family documentary (thanks steve and kim) and he has created blinders that he sells online. they are like horse blinders (i think...i've never had a horse), and you put them on and they block your peripheral vision so you can stay focused on what is ahead of you, not distracting you.

wait...wouldn't buying those create more stuff?

it never ends.