Ooh la La Lives!

So...the story gets better. Matthew, the nephew I was training to take over the shop decided to take another stab with convincing his uncle to reopen the shop.

well...lets just say that it will be back open on saturday...because Matthew now owns it. He bought it from Fred! Fred sold it to him for next to nothing...but how crazy is that? i'm really excited for Matthew, he really wants to prove that he can do it, and i think he can. so the story has a happy ending, and only a small hitch with the shop being shut down abruptly this week.

Ooh La La should be up and running again in no time.

I can't believe this week. so nuts.

ooh la la no more

so...weird day. ooh la la crepes closed it doors. in the middle of the day. its over. i wish there were more to tell, but that is about the whole story. fred didn't want it to be open anymore, so its not. he's not even in town. he called his nephew and had him close it for him. no one knew it was coming, but it came.

i'm thankful this was my last week anyway. so i don't have to go into work this week. i'm happy about that.

thats all for now.

first 8k...next the world

i did an 8k today. that would mean alot more if i actually ran it. i didn't, i walked it. it was fun though. my friend holly and i got to do a lot of talking. next time...we are running. as long as its a 5k and not an 8k. there were all these encouraging people posted throughout the run. i felt guilty getting the encouragement because i felt like i didn't deserve it. it wasn't like i was sweating and out of breath. my legs were getting sore, but that was about it. my favorite encourager was a high school girl on her cell phone. she pulled her phone away from her face to tell us good job, and then she went right back to her conversation. that girl gave me the affirmation i deserved.

i just want to jump out of my skin

so my job...i'm not going into details because this past saturday i was extremely humbled by the pride in my heart. Noel's message was great and through it i saw how judgemental i've been through this process. just because i may be hurt by a person, does not give me the right to lash out in revenge. i feel like i've been running person to person, tugging on their arms and asking, "will you take my side, will you...will you?" i'm pretty embarrassed by my immaturity. my boss has no intention to hurt me. he may not care for me or about me, but i can't assume that. that is not my problem. it is between him and God. all i need to care about is if God cares for me.

just had a thought. when i took this job i remember having a talk with God about the potential hazards i was entering. i was leaving security where i was constantly affirmed and entering the "real world" where people may not like me or affirm me. funny...i never once thought about that being the issue with my boss...i just assumed i would have to deal with it from the employees. when in fact the opposite happened.

and here is the reality. my boss is not evil. he just has expectations that i can't meet. someone else will, but i just can't. which is weird for me because i've always been able to superceed all expectations for all my bosses. and i can run around telling people how unfair those expectations are, or i can deal with the fact that if i was able to put myself completely into this job i could give him what he needs. i'm just choosing not to put myself completely into this job. i can't, and my reasons are good...but i shouldn't expect my boss to be happy about that. it is just time to leave, and allow room for someone to be what he needs.

thats it.

thank you to everyone who has been affirming me. it means a lot...you may be feeding an unhealthy addiction...but it means a lot. :)

and thank you to all who are praying for me. i really, really can tell. its hard to explain how i can tell...but trust me, i can.

and if you want all the gritty details...email me and i'll tell all. :)


just kidding


...or am i?

long story...very short

i'm leaving my job at the end of the month. so i'll soon be unemployed. i'm open to any job ideas anyone can send my way. i'll fill in the details eventually.