thanks to my man

my husband just redesigned my blog. pretty cool. he's turning into a complete computer nerd and i love it. computer nerds are so nice to have around.

i'm blogging from ooh la la crepes. this place is so cool. its absolutely beautiful. there is still alot to do, but i'm happy with the progress. today is the day of inspections. i'm not nervous yet, but i probably will be when they get here this afternoon.

my sister in law is getting married saturday! i'm so excited for her and her soon to be husband. they are so awesome. they are getting married soon so dennis can do the wedding. how cool is that? i cried when dan told me. she asked me to be in the wedding so i need to find a sleeveless knee length black dress. any ideas where i can find on by saturday? i've been wanting one anyway, so the timing is great.

meeting is here, so gotta go

the countdown begins

the shop will be open soon. holy crap...the shop will be open soon. getting the shop ready has been a good learning time and has really given me a sense of ownership...but i much prefer the working with people part. its been exciting for me to start training. i'm really enjoying interacting with the people i've hired. i guessed that i would like that part the best, and its nice to know that i was right. do we have an open date? not officially, but look for us next week...or the following...or the one after that.

blogspot just freaked on me

sorry if my previous post seemed abrupt. the reason is blogspot cut me off and started publishing as i was typing. i don't feel like repeating what i wrote, so just assume that i was witty and charming as always, and the ending comments completed my thoughts beautifully causing the reader to smile and feel warm and comforted.

i want to be beaners

everybody needs a beaners. for those of you who don't know, beaners is a coffee chain here in lansing. these people actually know how to make a cappuccino. their franchise and branding is great too (i think in these terms now that i'm a business woman...its a long way from the theatre minor i recieved at college). These people know what they are doing. i...on the other hand...don't. i know a lot of what not to do, but very little about what to do. i want someone holding my hand and saying "okay suzanne, this is exactly what you need to do next. and when thats finished, come to me and i'll tell you what needs to be done after that." so i pretty much want to be a robot that someone programs, pushes the on button and sends me on my way to a successful business venture. i would make a good robot.

oooo....there is a squealing girl in beaners right now. i don't like squealing girls. oops, i just looked at her. its not a girl. its a woman. i don't know what to make out of a squealing woman.

i hurt my tummy

i wanted something sweet, and i raided my fridge. i would tell you what i ate, but i'm ashamed. i'll just say it was a...concoction. from this day on, i hate concoctions.

and i hate fridges.

i had an amazing time in yoga class today. i feel all relaxed and stretched out. i wish i could do yoga every day. the problem with yoga at home is jaden jumps on me and dan laughs at me. not easy to get "centered" in that environment.

my treadmill is still broken. i'm still not working out. its so frustrating, its like i worked so hard to see it all be reversed. aahh...the cycle of life.

my brain just stopped, like that...just stopped. i must be too relaxed from yoga. i have no more to say tonight.

i've got to make this fast before Ms. Stone finds me

i'm working. i've been up and working for about an hour now. it feels like i've been working forever. jaden gave me an early start today (something isn't right with him...he was up screaming every 3 hours last night).

i got to volunteer in the children's ministry at church yesterday. it was so good to be back. i loved my job there. its weird...i don't think i would have left that job if i would have known what was going to happen to my father-in-law. you know what a cool idea is? God should give us all a chance to transend time 1 time, concerning 1 situation, in our lives. He could send us a ticket in the mail on our 18th b-day...and then we use the ticket anytime we want from then on. i know i'm only 26, but i think i would use my ticket right now. i would like to know if dennis is going to get better. i would also like to know if he doesn't get better, why God chose to do this.

my husband is really good at obeying and trusting God even when it doesn't make sense. i know that i will continue to follow God even if the worst happens with dennis. i'm just going to have a hard time feeling that God loves us. i didn't want to write that, but that is the truth. i know that the world is chaos, i know that there is evil, i know that love doesn't always mean safety and happiness...i know all this stuff, i just have a hard time taking what i know and feeling that God still cares.

so i guess in the meantime i just act on what i know and hope that my heart catches up.

"...when the darkness settles in Lord, still i will say, Blessed be the name of the Lord"

thanks-i like you people

i just wanted to send out a sweeping thank you to all the love that has been pouring our way. God just knows what we need. i thought i needed to stay home and get hours of work done tonight, but God knew i needed to pop over to be with some of my dearest friends tonight. the result is i'm more relaxed and energized now than i've been in days, even weeks. thanks for your emails, thanks for your comments, thanks for your prayers, thanks for your love. its humbling to be loved so much.

things are still not going well with dennis. its hard to even know how to update everyone. there is still hope...we just wish we knew what is going to happen. but we're forced to wait on God and the journey He's putting us on...even when it bites.

anyways...thanks.